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oh, you’re “100% sober and you’ve found god?” let’s see how long that lasts. let’s see where you are in 6 months. i’m not trying to be a bitch but seriously, i know how you are. if we were still friends and i were to say to you “let’s see where you’re at in 6 months” i know you would reply with something like “ohh fuck i know right” seriously, i’m not even gonna fucking sugar coat anything anymore. i don’t see how you can be with josh after you saw everything we went through. he is CRAZY and everyone fucking knows that. he may not be psycho right now because you guys JUST started dating, but look how we were; we were together for a year and a fucking half. the first few months were fucking amazing until i “lost his trust.” wanna know why i lost his trust? i told him i was going to hangout with dalis and jordan and do k. well that day i just ended up hanging out with dalis then we went to shaye’s house. we NEVER did any k that day, but then when i needed a ride home, jordan gave me a ride home. he was blowing up on me acting like i did all this k and had a fuckin orgy with 7 guys or something like that. the other times i “lost his trust” were fucking ridiculous bullshit situations that he blew up WAY out of proportion. you wanna fuckin know why he acted like that? because he lied to me, cheated on me, flirted with other girls, and god know what else BEHIND MY BACK.

I caught him texting multiple girls, even LEAH who he said was his “best friend” at the time, i caught him saying shit to her like “come over and cuddle with me and smoke a blunt with me and watch movies with me <3” and “you’re so cute ;3” but she WASN’T the first girl I caught him talking like that to. He said shit like that to like that to 2 or 3 other girls, and when i tried looking through his facebook i KNOW he deleted soooo many fuckin messages. He also had girls over at his house and didn’t tell me, and kissed one of them. He cheated on me with Skye while we were together. He fucked Skye when we took our break and lied to me for over a year about what went down with her. He lied to me about Chantal and told me that they just kissed when in reality they were apparently getting serious before we started dating and they had sex and i know this because anthony dated chantal and he looked through her messages between them(hence, why josh and anthony have problems with each other.) i dont know all the other shit that he did or lied about, that’s probably just the tip of the fucking iceberg, but seriously, i’d say goodbye to all your friends now, because in a few months you will have absolutely no social life at all. if you try to hang out with your friends, no matter who it is, he will fucking blow up on you for not texting him back or for just being around people he doesnt know or he’ll just find something to fucking bitch about and embarrass you in front of all your friends.

I’m fucking telling you like it is, Josh is the best liar I’ve ever met and I swear on it. He will take everything he lies to you about TO THE GRAVE. He will take stupid little situations and turn them around on you so you feel like the bad guy, when in reality it has ALWAYS been him. I’m just giving you a fair fucking warning. You may not believe me because you guys just started dating, but in time I know that something will happen and he’ll start to get suspicious and make himself think all this crazy shit and convince him that it happened and he will go fucking psycho on you and pretty much make you his bitch.

face it, you can’t fucking date someone who was engaged to your (ex) best friend. fucking think about it, britney. THINK ABOUT IT. how is he going to date someone that fucking reminds him of me?! how is he going to be with someone that he’s had memories involving me with? how is he going to fucking date someone that fucked his best friend/roommate? how is he going to date someone that he always said was “fat” or “ugly” or “stupid” and just talk a ton of shit about?(if you ask him then he’s obviously going to fucking deny it, but at this point i dont fucking have the energy to lie about stupid shit) seriously, fucking explain this shit to me. is it because you’re both “in love”? LOL. we were “in love” once, and look how that ended. 

grow the fuck up and open your goddamn eyes, britney. you guys are just a fucking joke to everyone else and i laugh about it every single day. go ahead, talk all the shit about me you want. say whatever the fuck you want to each other, but in time you’re going to be thinking to yourself that i was right and that you fucked up.

you’re fucking blinded by love. but don’t worry, i was in your position at one point. in the mean time, i’ll just be fucking focusing on myself, my art, and the crazy shit i do on the weekends lmao NOT on you and josh since you guys seem to be so fucking full of yourselves thinking my goddamn life revolves around you two. the fact that both of you are saying that you’ve found jesus and are 100% sober now just stomps on any negative feelings i’ve had towards the situation because now whenever someone brings it up i just fall out of my fucking chair laughing.

good day to you :)